Today everything feels different. And actually everything is different now. While sitting in the bus, listening to music and following my thoughts wherever, I suddenly knew, what I were trying to figure out since years.
Tag: escape
20.01.2019//19.01//now
When I went for that hike, I walked through a dark, grey landscape, not able to see anything bc of all the fog. I had no idea that already after a few kilometers walking up the mountains, there wouldn’t be any more fog….and so I ended up on a sunny mountain top above the clouds. Well…I had to head back to the cloudy landscape afterwards…but now I know, that there’s sun above the clouds – and I know how to get there. It doesn’t mean, I’ll always be able to reach the sunny mountain top..neither it means, all my problems are solved, when I’m up there…but it’s so important to know that there’s so much more than what we see in our daily routine, what we call “normal” in western society, that we sometimes just don’t know how beautiful and crazy life can be, as long as we’re not leaving our home and start to follow unknown paths, facing challenges and experiencing adventures, loosing the path sometimes…but finally arriving at the sunny top of the mountain…and as we look down, our life back then seems so small and unimportant, so boring and without any adventures, without any possibilities to reach something or to loose something, it seems like we’ve not been alive at all before. Right now I’m back home, and enjoying the safety of having a job and studying, of having a place to live and of having the same people around me each day…but missing that sunny mountain top badly…and actually I’m not sure, if I can keep going like this, living in this capitalist system, as if everything in the world was fine, or if I have to leave once again, to return to the sunny mountain top – and this time forever.
2019/2020
2019 was a year full of final goodbyes, of days filled up with new thoughts, a year full of writing and drawing, meditation and nature, running and Yoga…a year full of delicious food, full of colors and sun and sea, a year with less parties but more time to find the beauty in everything, a year with not many but hard decisions, a year full of new things to learn… I became a Yogateacher, explored India, and started to study Social Work..and finally everything I was concerned about turned out as something positive for my life. However; I’m super thankful for 2019!…and looking forward to a magic 2020 full of love, freedom and life!