The picture reminds me of fairytales, old, untold secrets, but also of warm summernights next to the ocean under a nightblue sky….actually I took it around 5 o’clock in the morning in Coimbra while we where looking for a place to keep warm until the car rental company would open their doors. But it really feels like a fairytale, to be here in Portugal again, to come back to places which are connected with crazy adventures, which are connected with my journey in autumn 2018…even nothing is the same this time; I’m not on a journey to explore everything new, I’m here with my dad, who’s checking out the last things so my parents can move to Portugal in summer, to the place we all fell in love with. It’s a place full of fairytales and magic, full of strong living-beings with crazy stories, it’s a place in the mountains near the sky, it’s valleys full of fruits and burned trees, it’s coffee in the middle of the village in the morning, it’s the sound of drums, guitars and singing people sitting around the bonfire, it’s the feeling of connected souls, connected, as all of us here escaped the system.
Tag: dreams
Sweet life
Some days, the tristesse of the smalltowns I work or live in is pulling me down, so I can’t enjoy anything then but Yoga and running, or escaping to the woods…but these days I feel fine, even while spending day by day in between grey walls and empty people. I think our inner state plays a huge role when it’s about daily life; we can choose to be sad and angry about everything, or we can choose to see beauty in everything. And yes, sometimes it feels impossible to see the beauty in everything, but it’s not, just harder sometimes. And finally: The way you feel, and the way you meet the world, the things will come to you, the world will come to you and invite you to adventures, you never even could imagine.
Why I need at least a second life/Travel plans
I’m quite stressed by my work these days as I also have to write stuff for university…and so I hardly find any time for doing things I love…or if I find time I’ve got less time left for sleeping…so I have to get enough sleep at the weekends which means again that I’ll have less time for writing, painting, hiking, running, Yoga…so, no matter what I do, there’s not enough time for everything. Sometimes I feel like I need at least a second life to do all the things I’d love to do.
But what I actually wanted to write about is, what makes me keep doing all of this:
Looking forward to my next journey, not a long journey this time, but a journey I’ve been waiting for for a long time..to a magical place I’ve already been to in autumn 2018…: Portugal!
24.01.2019//14.44//now
Today everything feels different. And actually everything is different now. While sitting in the bus, listening to music and following my thoughts wherever, I suddenly knew, what I were trying to figure out since years.
20.01.2019//19.01//now
When I went for that hike, I walked through a dark, grey landscape, not able to see anything bc of all the fog. I had no idea that already after a few kilometers walking up the mountains, there wouldn’t be any more fog….and so I ended up on a sunny mountain top above the clouds. Well…I had to head back to the cloudy landscape afterwards…but now I know, that there’s sun above the clouds – and I know how to get there. It doesn’t mean, I’ll always be able to reach the sunny mountain top..neither it means, all my problems are solved, when I’m up there…but it’s so important to know that there’s so much more than what we see in our daily routine, what we call “normal” in western society, that we sometimes just don’t know how beautiful and crazy life can be, as long as we’re not leaving our home and start to follow unknown paths, facing challenges and experiencing adventures, loosing the path sometimes…but finally arriving at the sunny top of the mountain…and as we look down, our life back then seems so small and unimportant, so boring and without any adventures, without any possibilities to reach something or to loose something, it seems like we’ve not been alive at all before. Right now I’m back home, and enjoying the safety of having a job and studying, of having a place to live and of having the same people around me each day…but missing that sunny mountain top badly…and actually I’m not sure, if I can keep going like this, living in this capitalist system, as if everything in the world was fine, or if I have to leave once again, to return to the sunny mountain top – and this time forever.