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When I read the book “Nachtzug nach Lissabon”, I got the idea of taking that train one day…but never thought it would become real that soon.
Now I’m in exactly the same train which Mundus took back then in the book, when he suddenly left his life in Switzerland to start a life-changing trip…For me, it’s a long planned trip, but also I hope to find the answer to a question which I am thinking about all the time since a while…so let’s see where this trip will lead to!
– love, travellers!-
Some days, the tristesse of the smalltowns I work or live in is pulling me down, so I can’t enjoy anything then but Yoga and running, or escaping to the woods…but these days I feel fine, even while spending day by day in between grey walls and empty people. I think our inner state plays a huge role when it’s about daily life; we can choose to be sad and angry about everything, or we can choose to see beauty in everything. And yes, sometimes it feels impossible to see the beauty in everything, but it’s not, just harder sometimes. And finally: The way you feel, and the way you meet the world, the things will come to you, the world will come to you and invite you to adventures, you never even could imagine.
I’m quite stressed by my work these days as I also have to write stuff for university…and so I hardly find any time for doing things I love…or if I find time I’ve got less time left for sleeping…so I have to get enough sleep at the weekends which means again that I’ll have less time for writing, painting, hiking, running, Yoga…so, no matter what I do, there’s not enough time for everything. Sometimes I feel like I need at least a second life to do all the things I’d love to do.
But what I actually wanted to write about is, what makes me keep doing all of this:
Looking forward to my next journey, not a long journey this time, but a journey I’ve been waiting for for a long time..to a magical place I’ve already been to in autumn 2018…: Portugal!
Today everything feels different. And actually everything is different now. While sitting in the bus, listening to music and following my thoughts wherever, I suddenly knew, what I were trying to figure out since years.
When I went for that hike, I walked through a dark, grey landscape, not able to see anything bc of all the fog. I had no idea that already after a few kilometers walking up the mountains, there wouldn’t be any more fog….and so I ended up on a sunny mountain top above the clouds. Well…I had to head back to the cloudy landscape afterwards…but now I know, that there’s sun above the clouds – and I know how to get there. It doesn’t mean, I’ll always be able to reach the sunny mountain top..neither it means, all my problems are solved, when I’m up there…but it’s so important to know that there’s so much more than what we see in our daily routine, what we call “normal” in western society, that we sometimes just don’t know how beautiful and crazy life can be, as long as we’re not leaving our home and start to follow unknown paths, facing challenges and experiencing adventures, loosing the path sometimes…but finally arriving at the sunny top of the mountain…and as we look down, our life back then seems so small and unimportant, so boring and without any adventures, without any possibilities to reach something or to loose something, it seems like we’ve not been alive at all before. Right now I’m back home, and enjoying the safety of having a job and studying, of having a place to live and of having the same people around me each day…but missing that sunny mountain top badly…and actually I’m not sure, if I can keep going like this, living in this capitalist system, as if everything in the world was fine, or if I have to leave once again, to return to the sunny mountain top – and this time forever.
Everything is possible, nothing is sure.
The last week was full of new things, learning and trying, and new situations which made me feel like a first class student again, knowing nothing yet. But I’ll keep learning and trying…and then I’ll decide if I keep going like now or if I quit. So nothing is sure; 2020 definitely will be a year full of changes…However, there are a few things helping me through such days…one of them is hiking. The picture I took at the “Belchen”, a mountain near my home in the Black Forest, where I hiked with a friend yesterday.
When nothing is sure, everything is possible.
There’s no question that climate change is the main reason for these fires. And climate change is human-made. Climate change is just a very visible result of capitalism. If we want to stop the climate change to save ourselves and the living-beings around us, to save our life and future, to save the earth, we need to overcome capitalism. Stop being a part of capitalism. There are thousands of ways to get out of it! Some of them I’ll post here in the next few weeks.
2019 was a year full of final goodbyes, of days filled up with new thoughts, a year full of writing and drawing, meditation and nature, running and Yoga…a year full of delicious food, full of colors and sun and sea, a year with less parties but more time to find the beauty in everything, a year with not many but hard decisions, a year full of new things to learn… I became a Yogateacher, explored India, and started to study Social Work..and finally everything I was concerned about turned out as something positive for my life. However; I’m super thankful for 2019!…and looking forward to a magic 2020 full of love, freedom and life!
A lovely street dog and me, in Kasol, India, few weeks ago.
Sometimes I still wonder, how I ended up spending 4 months in India…as I had planned only two months, feb and march, mostly to do a yoga teacher course…India itself didn’t interest me that much, back then.
But from the first day on, it completly overwhelmed me with all the places full of beautiful, pure, chaotic life.
I still remember how thick the tropical air was when I left the airport, and this strange, different smell, the sounds of this – for me – new piece of earth…
I guess this was when I realized, that it would be damn different than my journeys before.
And so it was.
I travelled around, together with a lovely friend from home, explored, learned and mostly learned how less I knew because I were always staying in safe, clean and grey europe.
And I learned, that all my expectations how the people would be here were clearly influenced by stupid german media, western media.
So, forget all the western stories about this country and go and explore by yourself!;)
About how I came back to India…
I couldn’t get enough in these two months, feb and march, I couldn’t get enough of the nature, the mountains, the jungle, the sea, the fruitshops, the markets and rikscharides, the sunsets and coconuts, yogalessons and meetings with other travellers, culture and food, and all these people living here, and especially one of them, so that’s why I am here again.